Thursday, August 25, 2011

Sometimes I feel...

Sometimes I feel like I can go for hours on the elliptical at the gym and sometimes I feel like I can barely get out a half an hour.

Sometimes I feel like I have the worst job ever and sometimes I feel like it's not that bad since I get to blog and chat with friends all day.

Sometimes I feel really annoyed when actual work takes over my blogging/chatting time like it has the past week.

Sometimes I feel really burned out from work, like I do right now.

Sometimes I feel really excited to try something new and sometimes I feel really scared that something might go terribly wrong when I do.

Sometimes I feel like I really didn't need that Tostino's Party Pizza as a late night snack after my horrendous Wal*Mart trip and sometimes I feel like it was totally worth it because I only ended up like 300 calories over for the day.

Sometimes I feel like I only ever hear the song "Pumped up Kicks", but then I remember it's just Janette complaining that she's hearing it again.

Sometimes I feel like 46 peaks is impossible and other times I feel I want to knock them all out in one year.

Sometimes I feel sad that I haven't seen my "guy friend" in over a week and have barely talked to him and other times it puts the situation in perspective for me and makes me feel like I don't need him as much as I thought I did.

Sometimes I feel bad because I've charged a lot of things onto my credit card, mostly food and gas and then other times I feel I have no problem and buy a digital camera.

Sometimes I feel really happy that I'll have a new camera for our hike Saturday.

Sometimes I feel frustrated that my BFF Alison always has to spend her summer weekends at her boyfriend's family's camp and other times I'm happy that she chose to do something with me instead of them.

Sometimes I feel really annoyed that my mom calls me 4 times in one evening and then other times I feel sad that we don't have the relationship that a lot of other people I know have with their parents.

Sometimes I really feel like casually sliding my phone off my desk.

Sometimes I feel really overwhelmed with blogging, there are so many people that I feel I don't get to read as often as I want or keep in touch with as much as I should, but other times I'm really thankful for the bloggy friends I've made thus far.

Sometimes I feel disappointed in myself, had I stuck to what I was doing back in January, I would be at my goal weight by now.

Sometimes I feel excited to see the family I babysit for and other times (like tonight) I'm totally dreading it.  It's rainy, I'm tired...I just want to go home and snuggle with my bear.

Sometimes I feel like I want to move down south and be in warmth and sun all the time and other times I see pictures on Stephanie's blog that remind me that flatness and lack of trees gives me anxiety.

Sometimes I feel like pizza is the only thing I want to live on for the rest of my life.  Actually, I always feel that way.  Why is pizza SO good?

Sometimes I feel like a failure because I don't think I'm where I should be at 26 years old.  Teaching, steady relationship/married, travelling, not in debt, enjoying life...

Sometimes I feel like I've got all the time in the world.


Vivian said...

You are not on this alone...even though we know how "unhealthy" it can be...sometimes I just want a greasy pizza with a cold glass of COKE. Enjoy your life NOW without children! And when you have them enjoy them then. There is a time and place for everything. Sounds like your mom calling 4 times in an evening is what my mom and many others would do...just a sign that You are her world!

Liz Sadler -Feel Better Project said...

I feel like you should cut yourself some slack. Everything turns out alright in the end!

Stephy said...

I loved this post =) [I love them all though, really.] So good to get to know you a little better. YOU ROCK! Remember that. Who cares if you're not to your goal weight yet? I'm sure you look great?! Who cares if you ate a late night pizza snack!? I'm sure it was totally delicious! Close relationships with parents can be so overrated; they just have more opportunities to bug ya ;) Have a great day & thanks for the awesome post that let me get to know you more!

A Randomlicious Blog for the Soul said...

Great Idea for a post! I think you do have all the time in the world. Live it up one day at a time! :)

Kate said...

There is no "right" place to be at any age, but I understand the frustration. I read somewhere that if we read or heard a friend comment on how they needed a break (or a mental boost) that we would encourage them to take that time to do so. But take a break ourselves, and we would feel guilty. It's hard to cut yourself some slack, but it is important to do so. Hope you start to feel better soon!

Miss S. said...

I am thankful for you too. And why is pizza so damn good?

stephanie said...

I don't think there's any one right place to be or thing to do that is across the board for everyone. enjoy where you're at- it's a lesson I'm learning myself!

Ashley said...

I feel a lot of opposites just like that, too. And the "casually sliding your phone off your desk" made me laugh! haha. I loved this post today. What I noticed, is last week I confessed how I felt behind everyone in the "children department" but even if I am 5-7 years behind them, the timing is perfect for me. So even if you don't feel like you are where you should be right now, when the timing is right, you will be. :)